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I’ve made it before.
I’ve made it to the season where everyone can get dressed and brush their teeth.
I’ve made it to everyone playing independently while I have a nap or some quiet.
I’ve made it to drinking coffee and reading a book at the playground while my kids play without me.
I’ve made it to sleeping through the night.
I’ve made it to being rested enough to get up before my family and accomplish many things before they rise.
I’ve made it, and I found it wanting.
I found it lonely.
I found it lacking in miniature hands and tiny voices.
I found my arms empty and aching because I “made it” and I didn’t realize all that would be missing.
We had three babies in three and a half years and then in our exhausted and overwhelmed state, thought we were done.
But God changed our hearts through some heartbreak and miraculously we have had two more babies.
(Precious baby boy in 2021)
(Precious baby girl in 2022)
Again I find myself exhausted. However this time everything is different.
I know how quickly time goes.
I know that the elusive season of sitting at a playground sipping coffee instead of stopping a one year old from plummeting from the highest heights, does come.
Teach us how short our lives really are
so that we may be wise.Psalm 90:12 ICB
It’s ok to be “making it” to an easier time. There are challenges I’m facing now that I will weep before the Lord with thanksgiving when and if they ever fully end.
And yet we cannot give up living fully in our present circumstances.
So no wonder we don’t give up. For even though our outer person gradually wears out, our inner being is renewed every single day.
2 Corinthians 4:16 TPT
Mama, I know that you’re facing some big things. If you’re new to this gig, it really might feel like intense, hands on stage is going to last forever. But it really doesn’t.
Not one season of motherhood lasts forever. That is wonderful and sobering. Wonderful because there are real difficulties you’ll be glad to leave behind and sobering because we don’t get these years back.
We view our slight, short-lived troubles in the light of eternity. We see our difficulties as the substance that produces for us an eternal, weighty glory far beyond all comparison, because we don’t focus our attention on what is seen but on what is unseen. For what is seen is temporary, but the unseen realm is eternal.
2 Corinthians 4:17-18 TPT
You will make it. Your faithfulness to keep moving forward and being the mama He is calling you to be is an eternal work. We may be discouraged or distracted by what is seen, but there is a forever factor to our calling that will last forever.
You may feel like you are wearing out, but inwardly, every single day, God is making you stronger. He is constantly renewing.
You are made for this. You will make it, this challenge will not last forever. You have been anointed by the Holy One for such a time, and such a family, as this!
Oh Jesus, we echo the words of Moses today that you would teach us how short our lives really are so that we may be wise. It says in Proverbs that a wise woman builds her house. May we be wise women who live fully in the moment you have handed us, recognizing that in the difficulty there is an eternal glory that is coming. Thank you for your anointing. Thank you for renewing us every day. May each mama reading this feel your empowering love. In Your name. Amen
With love and continued prayers,
Monica
We are in the process of wondering if we are done or not... my heart longs for more but we've had many struggles with pregnancies in the past and I know, should we choose to try again, I will again need to be heavily medicated and monitored. Pregnancy has not been easy for me. An absolute joy - YES! But it's hard work.
Many pros and cons have been discussed, many prayers have been prayed. But it's so comforting to me, knowing you can "be done" but then change your mind later if you so choose.
Thanks for being vulnerable and sharing Monica!